Lately, it feels like I’m a tumble weed, drifting along in a daze, only to be swept up with a gust of wind. There has been so much uncertainty for a change-hating Taurus like me, and what I am fine with one day is quite often what I may be freaking out over the next. Yup, it has been quite a bumpy ride these past weeks, and with so much change on the way, I guess all that I can really do is to look inward to find the bearings I so need to steady me during this final rough patch.
A frightening panic attack on Tuesday was repeated again on Saturday – again, without much warning, but after indulging in rather too much coffee. This has made me realise that much as I adore espresso and coffee in general, it may not be the best idea right now. Being calm and focusing on the good things is what I need right now – friends, dresses, fun, new places, new adventures, me time and sunshine… all somehow seem more rewarding than a double espresso. If I tell myself this enough, soon I should feel believe it. 
So, in the interest of calm, zen and relaxed Rox in this city, here are some of the things I’m looking forward to the most in this next week and beyond:
* My last two days of full-time work. It still hasn’t sunk in that my dream is finally coming true again… back to the world of freelancing, working from home in pajamas, crazy deadlines and flexible time. Cannot. Friggin. Wait.
* Mid-morning gym or mid-afternoon runs. Perhaps I will even start doing Pilates in the mornings again, or take a boxing class. Whatever I do, this is a hugely important thing and I am determined to get back my energy and motivation.
* Working on my horror, which is becoming the proverbial elephant in the room. If I can even get halfway by the end of the year, that will be something, but this effing book has GOT to get going – the story has to be told before I (literally!) lose the plot.
* Reconnecting my inspiration and motivation. I’m starting an awesome project next month, writing about things I love, with a lot of research and a chance to find my inspiration again after months of uninspired, churned out garbage.
* Surrounding myself with awesome people, things and vibes. Friends who have been here lately, even when I haven’t been easy to be around, things and people that make me happy, pretty colours, pretty fabric, pretty clothes and splashes of colour to boost my mood… this is what my Spring will be about – rejuvenation across the board!
But right now, I need to go and put on a pretty dress and get ready for a champagne brunch with the lovely DT, to take in some sunshine and some claps and giggles.
Bon Sunday y’all, and here’s to a refreshing Spring ahead! 
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