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I have been quite unable to sit still today – after a busy weekend (and a bit of a mehish Saturday spent working my afternoon away), I feel rested and zenned out… also, this is my last full week of office work before I embark on my freelance adventures again.

It’s been a scary time, and one of the most stressful times of my life in many ways – so much uncertainty, and a feeling of isolation and downright, imobolising fear that has a nasty way of jumping me when I least expect it, making my chest close up and my brain freeze with the “I can’t do this” thoughts on repeat. Scary stuff indeed!

But on the other side of that, there have also been some great moments… shoe sales, beautiful things, incredible avant garde horror movies (Martyrs and Antichrist – reviews coming soon!), fun dinners, insane nights out, pretty boys, prettier dresses, delicious noms, good wines, good company, epic series slumming, plenty of claps and giggles… the stuff that makes you remember what life is really about. That has been what has kept me going – filling the doubts and fear with laughter and self-indulgence!

And so, as the end of one era comes, the start of a new one begins next week. I have no idea what the future holds just yet, and I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared shitless, but I feel excited at the thought of a new adventure, and I have a feeling that this time, everything that I have wanted is going to come into place.

Average and safe just isn’t going to cut it anymore. Here’s to living life at full throttle, my way or the highway… and living La Vida Lipstick, the Roxilla way!