Roxilla

happy thoughts... happy thoughts...

Well, it turns out that caffeine withdrawal puts me into a seriously nasty mood – somehow, am not at all surprised. It’s been a shitty day though, lack of coffee aside… and a trip to the doctor did not help either.

I know I’m a workaholic type, and I know that eventually, stress catches up with you. I know that I’ve had a heck of a lot to deal with on all fronts these past few weeks, and I know that my tonsil issues have a lot to do with the stress. What I didn’t know though, even if it was staring me in the face, was that the reason I have been feeling even more shitty than usual these past few weeks is that I have pre-burnout. So stress makes you sick? Who knew?!

I also have a throat infection, but at least the tonsils are ok. My doctor gave me some medication for the throat, and a shot of vitamin B12 in the butt (effing painful!) and some other supplements, and told me that I pretty much have to chill the hell out before I run myself into the ground. She also gave me a script for antibiotics, in case the throat thing gets worse.

Chris and I have long chats about how to keep the stress levels down, and in theory, nothing my doctor advised is new to me… but somehow, it is so hard to listen! I am my own worst enemy, and I treat myself way worse than any boss ever could – right now, I am completely running myself into the ground, and it’s taken this little wake up to finally realise that.

Some massive changes are in the works already, and I’m working at making my life more managable to prevent things from sliding… for now though, what keeps me going is caffeine, Patron and shopping and Sweetie Pie chocolates. In good measure.

Thank god we’re at the half-way mark to weekend, with a busy week and a lot of work, not to mention this absolute MEH of a day, I really am in need of some proper downtime. And less partying!

That’s the plan anyway, doubt my will-power will stand up to the lure of the city, hehe.