Roxilla

Despite a good weekend, I’m feeling a little sad and wistful today. So many thoughts to process lately, it feels like there is just too much going on up in my head – need some time out away from the city I think.

Current Sunday Musings…

* Big meeting at work on Tuesday, will have all eyes on me and it’s both scary and exciting
* I think I have seen my dream city apartment – will call tomorrow to see if I can check it out
* Much as I need the change… moving away from my little slice of madness here is sad
* At what point does ambition take over the need to play nice?
* Being single makes me feel vulnerable when I’m out, I hope that kak feeling passes soon
* Things really can and will turn around in the blink of an eye
* More people have complimented me on my eyes this weekend than they have all year
* Sometimes being brave helps, other times it doesn’t work and you feel small again
* I need to get to the library soon – read all my books countless times already
* This final deadline is stressing me out and I can’t wait til it’s all over at last
* The wispy clouds over the city make me feel sad somehow even though they make me smile

Funny how things can feel right and wrong at the same time. Being single again is a bit like that – on one hand I feel strong and excited for what lies ahead, but on the other hand I still get that feeling in my tummy that tells me it isn’t all claps and giggles at this point. One week at a time I guess, and so far at least I’m keeping busy and staying happy despite the kak moments!

Good things are ahead, I can just feel it in my bones.