Hey look, it’s Gael!
This time last week I was making plans for an Arnold’s breakfast, and was gearing up for one of the nicest Sunday’s in a while. Today, despite the utter godsend of having my sister down for most of the weekend, I’m feeling scared and unsure of things.
Amazing how the universe can shift so much in a week hey, and it just goes to show that we should never assume we know anything or have any of the answers. It’s at that very moment where you start to let your guard down a bit, and say ‘yes, I am finally getting myself together” that it all falls down, and you realise you were wrong all along.
I saw this little gem over at Louisa just now, and couldn’t think how apt this quote is for me at the moment…
Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.
- Theodore Rooseveld
So that is what I am doing now, and what I am aiming towards from now on. Shit happens, you pick yourself up and you learn your lesson. Acceptance is the key I reckon, and I am slowly starting to get a bit of clarity on things. If going back to an office environment is what I have to do, then so be it. I know that my little freelancing journey has come to an end though, and much as it’s killing me to let go of that dream, I have to just swallow my pride and move on.
As a friend of mine always says, die lewe is bitter (life is hard). At least there is chocolate, that’s got to count for something!
fall down 5 times but get up 6 – it’s not maths – it’s zen
I really wanted to end the year on a good note, but I have given up on zen now.
Probably over-reacting, and it’s not such a big deal I know, but I don’t deal with failure very well, and I didn’t really have much of a plan B.
I have no idea where to from here, don’t even care much at this point. Just as long as it puts food on the table, I don’t care what I do.
Chin up Rox, everything is going to be okay – you’ll see. What happened? Are you okay?
Just had to accept that I wasn’t surviving, and that it’s not working.
I know that things change, and who knows – maybe I’ll land a really awesome ‘desk job’ that challenges me and is really great.
Still… feeling pretty bummed at the moment, will get over it soon I’m sure.
Sounds like you are making some tough decisions. I hope that it works out for you.
Thanks Po, bit of a kak time for stuff like existential crisis’ but just have to roll with the punches.